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Thursday, May 27, 2010
... so its been very long since i hav blogged...
juz saw my results for sem 2... hope everyone is fine... CONGRATS to all others who did well... everyone deserve a pat on their shoulders
did not do well this sem again... actually worst... But to do justice to myself. i have to admit that i did work harder this sem maybe just not hard enough. still hav lots of room for improvement. maybe i shall aspire to be like the accting ppl... the god and goddess
dun noe y looking at my grades developed certain random thoughts in me ...
i feel like im a little lost sometime... contemplating...
did i did the right thing? did i made the right choice? is this wat im made for? am i to follow the everyone's perception of the typical singaporean route? wat is the thing im made for? when will i find it? will i ever find it?
all my life (haha suddenly feel like completing this sentence by singing the song from hexis production... if u noe wat i means... haha only some will)
anyway all my life...
lets juz start with... i always though that everyone was made for something. Extraordinary people found the thing they are destined to excel in. Ordinary people just couldn't find it... but this does not mean that they r unhappy on the contrary many of them lived happily ever after.
all my life i thought that probably i will be juz another ordinary person, living my life... though ordinary but i hav great family found really heart-warming groups of friends (yup if u r reading this... u r one of them XD) dun really excel in anything doing fine as a student tie-ko ness allows me to achieve not bad grades in big exams enjoy my CCAs love my school life
I LOVE MY LIFE TO THE MAX!!! CONTENTED:)
nvr knew a the new environment would be tt diff
it did not seems diff at first... probably my sub conscious mind waive it off at first but later it seeps in
sch no longer hav tt ful of crap and heart warming "si dang" tt looks out for you no longer pampered with your beloved teammates who you hav been through thick n thin and the sickest trng ever deprieved of the most interesting and mischievous class on earth
Not that i lose the motivation to study... juz that the environment is no longer before
now that i think of it luckily shiqi was with me all the time... if not it would probably be even more sad life... ha our room n the new ppl we knew :) was sort of a comfort zone in the new environment
when environment changes and things no longer happens how it usually does... doubts come into place...
losing identity losing confidence doubtful of my own abilities
perhaps this is something that i hav to go through and to admit
this is really hard at times
but luckily i still hav those si dang... who r also working hard with me at some other place... the thought of that makes me smile :)
things get a little better as the sem comes to an end
i get to know another group of friends in hall :) hopefully we can become si dangs...haha
ok so much for emo-ing and contemplating life
juz had a little chat with my er jie... she never fails to make me feels better
she is one great example which illustrate the fact that if u hav been to the bottom ... somewhere in the middle isnt as dark as at seems
PRECISELY!!!
the fact that i can type these thoughts while lying against the couch and having a laptop in front of me while some kind fella who never even dreamt of consuming meat is saving his last grain of rice shows how lucky i am
am lucky shit to be able to do such stuff.
im definitely not at the bottom, neither did i get a taste of that somewhere in the middle
i juz merely dropped an inch
shall get back on my feet
life isn't all about the bad stuff . It is how u see it.
bribble smileZ... zzz everyone
ps: hey friends if u dun understand this post its alright... cos its juz my random thoughts... its juz bribble blabbering:)
n i feel like changing my backgound n font someday... my font like too small and read le bu shuai leh... i like hui ting's and jia yun's blog... clear and neat ... GOOD JOB ppl!!! haha
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